Friday, March 26, 2010

Our Journey

Somehow it seems like the day has been going by and I haven't found the time to post what I'd like to on here. So I decided to just start with a few pictures. Sometimes it seems like so much content is crammed into so little time, it feels like quite a task to recap it. It makes me realize how efficient God is, and how inter-connected and amazing His plans for us are.
We had been feeling for a while that it was time to do a little traveling, visiting friends and family and also maybe take the girls to the ocean... somewhere. We thought maybe in February, but it came and went with lots of snow, and colder temps. than normal in the southern regions. Finally Abe said (on March 5), "How about we head out March 11?"
I felt a bit of pressure... being in the middle of an unusual sewing spree... I wanted to finish the dresses I had started, to take along, sort everyone's clothes, leave the house spic and span, clean the van, clean the garage, lose at least ten pounds, think of thoughtful gifts for the ones we were visiting, and in general, feel on top of it all, organized and successful.
Somehow I knew I had to let go... it wasn't going to happen that way... and that I needed to be OK with feeling UNDONE.
By the way, I've never liked Florida that much, dreaded the thought of such a long drive, didn't feel it was essential to my happiness to go, etc. Are you getting the picture here? I was pretty sure that this trip was going to be a "journey", one where God was going to delve into my heart in a deeper way and hopefully rid me of some more of my own ways, that surely aren't as lovely as His.
Well, we packed up, armed ourselves with munchies for the road, the van halfway clean, but OK. The house was left in normal mode, which means some rooms were vacuumed, floors not washed, island countertop not cleared off, bed made with clean sheets, not ideal, but also do-able. We had a lovely drive to Mt. Crawford, Virginia. Found out having a GPS added some fun to the travel, checking our elevation etc. We ended up going a shorter, car-sick potential kind of road and it was so worth it!!! Breathtaking scenery even in in this dull winter time mode we are in. No one hurled and we arrived at our friends in good time.
We enjoyed seeing where they live. They used to live here in Ohio and moved away almost 3 years ago. Our children have grown up together and are all pals.
Left to right in this picture is:
Wynonah & Damaris (9), Brianna & Chloe(5), Shawn (reading), Patrick (3) on his lap, Robert & Hadassah (7)

The girls all slept in one room, no problems. We parents stayed up late, visiting. The next day, after being well fed twice, we headed out for North Carolina, where Abe's family lives. Somehow we get home and I find out I didn't get any pictures taken while we were there, which is typical for me.
Abe's Dad was actually on a job in PA, so we missed seeing him. Of course, his mom and sisters fed us well, gave us their beds, and made us welcome. We were there from Friday evening till Monday morning.
I have to get supper going and want to get some bread started yet, so I need to wait till next time to continue with details...

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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

White Nights & Haiku

I was recently introduced to haiku. I find myself charmed. The dictionary definition reads like this: (hi' koo) a Japanese poem or verse form, consisting of 17 syllables divided into 3 lines of 5, 7, and 5 syllables, often about nature or a season.
I love words... how so much can be meant or understood or felt in a single word, and yet also how sometimes words are such inadequate means of conveying what you feel...
Sometimes a word feels so powerful, to use too many feels like it would detract. Less is more. Other times it seems like there are not enough words to express the magnitude! Hense the charm of the haiku.
The snow we have been getting this winter has been affecting me. It has stirred all kinds of thought and feeling. It feels a bit strange considering I grew up where snow was the norm in winter. I am left to conclude that it is where I am inside that is making the difference. I think my eyes are more open than they used to be, maybe my ears too.
So... here are a few haiku of my own...

Snow inspires, moves me
Another time, pace, embrace
Always rewires me


White night of snow light
Moon hides but snow refracts
Soft glow defeats dark


Make me white as snow
So I may reflect the light
You shine upon me


Utter darkness fails
To consume the night made light
By pure driven snow

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Family Fun in the Snow

With the unusual amount of snow we have gotten so far this winter has come the opportunity of making use of it...
Abe piled a big pile of it with the tractor bucket and then he and Damaris proceeded to make an igloo, of sorts. It has two entrances. The room Abe dug out is quite big. Here are the girls, inside.

I so enjoy watching them all playing together... also like the guy in the cool shades...! :)

Abe got the girls to try riding the scoop shovel down the path. If you double click on the picture and enlarge it, you will see the expression on Chloe's face!

Oh yes... I crawled in there too. It's big enough inside that I could lay down full length in either direction. Can't say I'd actually want to live in one, though! A bit on the chilly side!
Who knows how many years it might be before we get this much snow again?

I intend to enjoy it while it lasts!
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Snow From Heaven

Isaiah 55:10
"For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven..."
I love how it traces every twig...
"Stopping by woods on a snowy evening..."
Out from under the pine tree... a place of refuge... maybe one of the many shapes the "wings of God" take...?
My little neighbor from the springtime long ago abandoned her home.
We have more snow right now than we have had for quite a few years. So white, so clean, covering so much... It makes me think of love, covering a multitude of sins.
Our yard has a lot of work to be done. There is still a cement mixer out front, a pile of sand, a couple bins of discarded stones, weedy piles of topsoil... it is still a work in progress. The snow covers it all so beautifully!
Is that like me?
"She is not afraid of the snow, for all her household is clothed with scarlet." Proverbs 31:21
Is being covered by His blood what makes me clothed with scarlet?
I have been reading the different references to snow in the Bible, and I cannot say that I have it figured out. All I know is I have a feeling of affinity growing, a sense of God saying something through it. Even if my mind is not grasping it, it feels like my heart "gets" it.
May the "work in progress" that is "me" be as sufficiently and beautifully covered as our unsightly yard!
This verse has been precious to me lately... "But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power MAY BE OF GOD and NOT OF US!" (2 Cor. 4:7) He did it this way on purpose!
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Saturday, February 6, 2010

More Snow

Rosehips from the mulitflora rose bushes that grow everywhere around here. The bane of every farmer, but a haven for the birds. They sure have a sweet smell when they bloom and the tiny red hips are beautiful, edible as well...
Along our drive there is a wealth of wild blackberry canes and multiflora rose bushes. To date, the berries they yield and the beauty they provide here, persuade me to not mow them down in favor of the neat, trimmed look.
What say you?


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Thursday, February 4, 2010

List of "LOVES"

January has come and gone in such a hurry! It's hard to believe we are already into the second month of the year.

February... probably best known for the holiday in it... Valentine's Day!

I have been thinking about the "loves" in my life, both large and small. Sort of another way of "counting my blessings", I guess... so I'm starting a list (not in order of importance).


I LOVE...

feeling known by God in intensely personal ways...

the smell of Lily of the Valley blossoms...

Abe, of course...

the way God brought us together and also the way He has kept us together...

Hadassah with her chocolate eyes and her creativity...

Damaris and the way she cradles my hand to her heart when I pray with her at bedtime...

my Dad and all he has given me...

watching seeds sprout...

the memory of Abe's first most original, non-traditional gift to me... a fingernail brush!

to smell my hair! :)

the special dogwood tree in our yard...

Chloe and her 100 watt smile...

Abi and the way she says "axlydent" for "accidentally"...

Abe's gift to me of a huge wind chime hung in the dogwood tree...

chocolate covered raisins...

our "marble" walk-in shower...

my freshly plumped feather pillow...

the colors green and blue and any variation of the two...

my sister Monica and all we share together, from conniptions - to in-laws, - to passion for loving the truth and being who God made us to be...

books that make me laugh and cry and also that strike a chord in my own heart experience...

the way my brother Dalen enjoys my girls, being daddy to two of his own...

canning jars full of good food on my cellar shelves...

that there is so much to be discovered yet, about God and this world He's put us in...

the smell of fresh roasted ground cornmeal...

Abe's love for our girls and the way he plays with them...

zest...both lemon, and for life...

secondhand shopping... otherwise known as treasure hunting...

hot chai...

my friend Charity's example to me of loving God and having an open heart, trusting Him with her life!

spending the day checking our vending machines with my Mom, the talking...and sharing a Heath Mocha Frap...

that the ways of God are "past finding out"...

words fitly spoken...

our home and all the miraculous details that God worked in building it to it's present state...


my sister Paula and all she adds to my life by daring to follow where God leads her...

neighbors/friends... both past and present... whose lives have contributed to mine in countless ways that make me treasure them all the more...

my niece LaCaysha and her cheerful help when I need her and, of course, dueling it out with her at the ping pong table...

memories! Of people, places, and things we've done with them, in them!

our local library. :)

the tender mercy of God!

Carolie, every memory of her and the anticipation of seeing her again...

my dictionary, a gift from my favorite grade school teacher...

my brother Justin who will somehow always be my little bunny, as hard as that might be to imagine...:)

words, poor vehicles though they be sometimes, to convey meaning...

knowing that God has a plan, that if we only knew the extent of it, it would take our breath away...

my nieces and nephews, big and small, and how each one contributes to our family just by being themselves... especially Little LuLu as the baby!...

that we have no say in the date of our birth or death, but that we are given the choice of how we spend each one in between...

that by starting this list, I am amazed to realize the sheer volume of the goodness of God to me!




Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Winter Wonders

TIME... it has a way of slipping by, and yet sometimes we go through things where we feel "stuck" in time... I have been thinking quite a bit about "time" recently. One of Michael Card's songs has a line..."who belong to eternity, stranded in time". This is not our home. We are only "stranded" here for a time, like being marrooned on a desert island. Our survival is not entirely up to us, but our will to "LIVE" has a profound effect on the quality of our "time" here. I have been savoring a song these days by Annie Herring called "Just One Thing". It says this:
"Just one thing, all I need... Put Your arms around me.
Draw me close to Your side till our hearts are one in stride...
STOPPING TIME in it's place, as I hide in Your embrace."
His love is timeless, as He is.
Obviously time has been going by without me posting anything on here. It is not because of lack of anything worth writing about, but rather because of too much.
I just read something that helps explain a little... "Ones destination is never a place but rather a new way of looking at things." - Henry Miller
I find that my journey is filled with continually finding new ways of looking at things, therefore, new views of who God is. There is a lot of joy in the journey, some growing pains as well. But it is oh, so worth it! It is most difficult to condense into words, this oftentimes wordless something that happens in the heart. I also keep being impressed with the idea that my journey is my own, and not essential to yours. God has His building blocks in place in your life as well as mine, otherwise He would not be Just, and He loves justice! He is intensely and personally interested in you and I. I feel an ever increasing need to decrease, that He might increase.
I have taken basicly no pictures in the last while. I have been seeing and savoring. I encourage you to do the same. You have no need of seeing through my eyes, just open your own to all that God is surrounding you with.

Lazy snowflakes, sifting down,
Landing soft upon the ground,
Is there something you would say
To my heart this winter day?

"I would ask you, Do you know
Who it is that loves you so?
That creates in quantity
Such delights for you to see?

All in intricate detail
Each of us unique will fail
To transmit to you the love
He pours out from up above.

So much grander than you know,
Much more bounteous than the snow,
Is His care and sweet regard
Swept out deep from Heaven's yard."

Pretty snowflake, you present
A sweet message, heaven-sent.
Lovely snowflake, ne'er will I
Miss your whispered lullabye.

May each of your days be filled with wonder!